So, as a SAHM, I start my day pretty early. And unless I have plenty of activities or outings planned, it can drag on… and on. On a good day, Jonas and I have an outing or a playdate planned, spend some time outside, and nap time takes up at least an hour-and-a-half so I can get a few things done. But many days I’m stuck coming up with ways to keep him entertained. I’m also stuck with trying to find ways to keep myself from feeling isolated and bored with toddler activities. (I can only push cars around and drop blocks in a bucketRead More →

In my last post on this topic, In Defense of the SAHM, Pt. I, I briefly discussed the idea that SAHMs are “privileged” in their ability to stay home. I wanted to take time to explore this a little more in-depth. Whether intentionally or subconsciously, this is a straw man constructed by those with no single-income household experience. I’ve heard it said many times that SAHMs are privileged to have husbands with well-enough paying jobs to allow them their permanent leave from the workforce. Perhaps some do, but many do not. Inability to Afford Vs. Living Above Your Means I know there are some peopleRead More →

Over the summer, smack dab in the middle of morning sickness, I revisited an old conviction and decided I wanted to return to plant-based lifestyle. For about 6 months in college I ate a vegan diet and the benefits were awesome! Unfortunately, it was short-lived because being vegan while living on a college campus proved almost impossible. Plant-Based & Not Totally Vegan Now that I run my own home, it’s infinitely easier to create the menu I want and my family needs–I’m not bound by some campus meal plan. However, living with a man who loves meat makes the strict vegan diet rather challenging (asRead More →

Hello Readers! So, the last time I posted was May 16th of this year. WHERE have I been all this time? Well, 3 months of that I was barely surviving life with a toddler and morning (read: ALL DAY) sickness… Because we are adding another one of these tots to our family! I thought morning sickness was hard when I could just lay around nursing myself with no one else to worry about. Nope. Morning sickness with a toddler: 10x worse. The other 2 months.. I guess I’ve just been trying to figure out how to get my life back together. I’m so happy toRead More →

This morning I realized I had finished my current Bible study and needed to find something new to start. I browsed my shelves for a few minutes and several books struck me as potential candidates. When I came across an old book my husband brought with him when we got married, I pulled it out and my mind was made up. I would read Radical by David Platt. Even as I have been drudging through doubt, anxiety, guilt and emotional evisceration, I am something of a masochist by nature (somehow I derive satisfaction from making everything harder on myself), so, naturally, I had to pick the mostRead More →

A recent debate regarding my choice to be a stay-at-home mom (SAHM) has compelled me to construct a defense of my vocation. Or, rather, an apologetic. I have been loosely accused of being inflexible, lacking gratitude, living an unapologetically privileged lifestyle, not being a team player, making my husband shoulder an unbearable burden alone, and, heck, just flat out selfishness. My friend whom the conversation took place with is a working mom with strong beliefs in her choice and I respect that. We agreed to disagree and not let our point of divergence affect our relationship. In light of that, I took these criticisms as a jumpingRead More →

I recently read a quote on meditation. It really had an unexpected impact on me. When I hear the word “meditate,” I get uncomfortable visions of silence, stillness…something like Elizabeth Gilbert in Eat, Pray, Love when all she can focus on is that stupid fly. We hear that we should “meditate” on the Word, but sometimes that’s a hard concept to apply. What does that look like (besides sitting crosslegged and trying to manifest positive vibes)? Seems sort of abstract, doesn’t it? The Benefits of Meditation And yet, this abstract idea is known to have benefits for our health and wellbeing. The NIH says, “Some researchRead More →

It may seem like I write a lot about the negatives of motherhood, and maybe that’s true; using words like “monotony,” “anxiety,” and “isolation.” But for good reason! There are some mornings I find myself scrolling through Instagram feeling totally defeated just because everyone else seems to have it together. I know it’s not true–even I put my best foot forward on social media–but somehow I still let myself believe I’m the only one struggling. So why am I being a downer highlighting the negatives? Well, I’m not. Do you really need one more voice telling you how well I’m getting along while you struggle? I just want to beRead More →

A common number I keep reading on the web is that about 10% of women experience postpartum anxiety and/or depression. This statistic sometimes includes a speculative clause that that number is probably higher, but many women don’t realize what they’re going through is normal and, therefore, don’t report it. Instead, they “white knuckle it” (as a friend of mine put it) alone for months or sometimes years at a time. Despite being a highly emotional person my entire life, I had utmost confidence that I wouldn’t be one of those weak 10-percenters. My confidence was undergirded by the fact that I had a natural birth (whichRead More →

When I discovered bullet journaling, it instantly became my number one favorite pastime. I posted photos of my spreads on Instagram and had many people comment on how artistic I was and how they would never have time for something like that. I would thank them and, of course, tell them all about how great bullet journaling was and all the cool stuff I was doing with it. It was something that motivated me to be productive. I always looked forward to sitting down with a jar full of pens and making my plans. After spending lots of time with decorative detailings and fancy layouts,Read More →